I’m so tired

Of feeling wired.

I don’t trust doctors, most of the time...

I had to take a LOA from graduate school for the second time because medication is derailing my life, rather, the side effects are… My previous psych put me on multiple meds and never once mentioned an alternative to this trial and error bullshit with different antidepressants. This is the second year medication has given me mania-type symptoms followed by a crash, but now I’ve realized the pattern and I’m going to stop the cycle. It took me having to go on Medi-Cal to find a doctor that recommended I do psychological testing instead of trying yet another SSRI and seeing what happens. Honestly, I’m so grateful for this new Dr. and these realizations but I'm also so angry. Angry at a broken healthcare system…#BipolarDepression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #ssrimeds