Does anyone else feel like it's a battle just to get the help and support you need? A constant back and forth in your own mind of being desperate for help, and then shaming or guilting yourself for needing it. Does any one else struggle to trust another person to let them in so you can move forward?
I have to switch therapists (mine is leaving the office we worked through). The process of finding a new one feels daunting and near impossible. The shuffling through of names, credentials, and hoping it works out. I hate the idea of opening up to a stranger, needing to trust someone enough to be vulnerable, when everything inside of is screaming to shut down.
But I know I need this support. I've benefitted from my last therapist and am not finished with that sort of support. Just getting what I need is so hard. Its like I have to battle, before I can begin the battle.