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Hi, my name is 1ALC_77. I'm here because
I guess I’ve been eyeballing books on Amazon so much that they gave me a recommendation based upon my searching…decided to give it a swing 💪🏻🥰 #MentalHealth #Abuse #BipolarDisorder #PTSD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Depression #ADHD #Selfharm #Trauma #Therapy
Therapist tells me that we may be done with goals on the plan by the end of this month which means it will lead to a discharge... if I'm ready.
Am I ready? That is the question.
Do I think I need more work? I don't know.
If yes, where am I needing the work? I'm not too sure.
I've been on this journey for 2 yrs now. There's moments I feel I'm "healed" then there's those days of where I'm not...
How do ppl continue this journey for yrs?! Yes, we all have different stories. Different wounds. But, how do y'all stay on this journey for so long?
I've had 3 therapists these last 2 yrs. & now, I may be seeing none. I need to sit with this & see if I really need to continue this journey..
So, in recent months my mental health has rapidly deteriorated. There’s so much that’s weighing on my mind and it’s just slowly killing my spirit. I feel angry ALL the time. I’ve frequently had dark thoughts about self harm because I just, quite simply, can’t cope. It’s been torture and I can barely sleep. I contacted my GP and they’ve increased two of my antidepressants and have referred me on to a proper psychiatrist to discuss putting me back on my antipsychotics to level my moods and all that.
Last week (the 17th), was my birthday. And my little sister surprised me so so much… She bought me a companion. The most adorable little ginger kitten with blue eyes. He is GORGEOUS, and his name is Loki.
In the evenings he crawls into bed with me and either sleeps on my side (as shown in the pic - please excuse my fat belly), or next to my head on the pillow, where he’d gently lick/groom my forehead as I fall asleep. He’s such a quirky little guy, too. He always seems to sense when I’m upset, and he quietly climbs into my lap and rests his head on my belly, leg or chest. He’s just the cutest little guy.
Anyway… I just wanted to show him off, haha. I hope you’re all doing well and staying hydrated in this awful humidity and the heat. Yesterday it reached 30°C and there was no breeze or wind whatsoever. Every breath felt like it was going nowhere at all. It was awful. Anyway.. Have a great week!
#chronicillnesswarrior #ChronicPain #PosturalOrthostaticTachycardiaSyndrome #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #InterstitialCystitis #NAFLD #LiverDisease #Diabetes #Migraines #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #TherapyPets #Therapy #Stress #Kitten #EmotionalSupportAnimals
I was in trauma therapy for a decade (re-entered therapy a few weeks ago!) and during those ten years, I got acquainted with the multitude of invisible suitcases I subconsciously was lugging around. In doing so, I opened doors that were previously bolted shut - the strides I took to better understand myself and the chaos that encapsulated me was transformative, and yet, sitting here on my bed, the weight of dread blankets me knowing the work I did and the work I'm currently doing in therapy will be lifelong. #Therapy #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Childhoodtrauma #Healing
I keep having nightmares about my abusive ex. It’s been night three of these little movie flicks of him having sex or kissing with other women in front of me and looking pleased about it meanwhile seeing that I’m alone. I don’t know how to interpret these dreams into reality and it’s hurting me so bad right now. I’m trying to take time to process my grief and also taking time to ensure I don’t do or say anything anymore that will get me self conscious in front of another man. I’m trying to meet new people now since I’m trying to gain new friendships since old ones were tethered; I met a guy through a penpal app called “bottled”; he’s from Nigeria, who has been through abuse himself as such but not as intense he says. He praises me on my beauty and my personality and he makes me feel good, but it’s only been a week and I’m afraid of letting someone in so soon. I don’t want to lose him since we connect on a lot of levels. I don’t know if I would even meet him some day anyways either.. 😣😞#Abuse #AbuseSurvivors #Nightmares #PTSD #Dating #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #Therapy #BipolarDisorder
I’m one week into my breakup with the most verbally abusive man I’ve ever been with. The neck grabbing, shirt grabbing, breaking my things in complete anger and yelling. How does one recover from this??? I know I need some serious help because I’m noticing a reliance of alcohol and medical weed, I’m debating on admitting myself into Shepherd Pratt which is an mental hospital which separates you by disorders. My parents are really telling me to just go to a psychiatrist and therapy but then I have to pay to go. You don’t have to pay anything supposedly. I don’t know. #Abuse #AbuseSurvivors #PTSD #HighlySensitive #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #MightyQuestions #AbusiveRelationship #Selfharm #Therapy
I found this graphic very helpful because it put actual language to that common suggestion, "would you say something like that about your friend? then why would you say that to yourself?" I'm posting this in case it helps someone else too.
I'm pretty good at the pet one (and I love my treats), but I forget to talk directly to my inner child. I could definitely improve in talking to myself like my BFF because my self talk is so negative and I always have a way to turn down a compliment or encouraging comment.
What are you doing well at and what would you like to improve in?