Last week my daughter needed to be brought into the er for cyclic vomiting at 1pm. (She’s 20) They didn’t admit her until 11pm so I finally got to go home. I couldn’t fall asleep and 7am came fast while I was binge watching tv. At 7am I heard a loud thud come from my bedroom. My boyfriend fell when he went to stand up and couldn’t feel the entire right side of his body. Had to call 911 and they took him to the same hospital my daughter is in. I had to call my other daughter to watch my son so I could go to the hospital. Found out he had a stroke and my daughter may have Lupus. I came home that night and found my sewer line backed up into my basement. Ugh, what a mess!! I spent the next 3 days going between both rooms trying to visit and be supportive for them both. The entire week I forgot to take any of my meds and I hadn’t even noticed a difference. Probably because I deal with shit in a way most people think I just don’t care or have no emotions. So today I decided I should take my meds as I woke up feeling like the weight of the worlds is on my shoulders. Man, I got so sick to my stomach and so damn tired and I’ve been crying all day long. I’m really just feeling in a very dark place and like I’m losing control over everything in my life right now. I’m not sure where to turn for help and yes I know I can’t just stop taking my meds like that again. I just want to feel ok. I want to feel like a normal human being. I want to want to do things again. I want to feel like I’m living my life and not just feeling like I’m in a bad dream. #Depression #DissociativeEpisodeMaybe #tiredofnotfeelingok #Newtothis