Why is it so hard that when my partner knows I am craving attention and affection but I am also in the middle of a BPD/bipolar mania stage that I have to start fights just to get him to notice me? Does everyone go through this? We have been together 15 years and as I get older I’m getting much worse, my meds are stupidly high and I am still functioning. Just not nicely #toobusytonotice #Myworldandmyenemy #confused