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I just want to share. I have had the strangest few weeks. TW just in case.
It seems as if everything that happens now reminds me or triggers me of something that happened in my past. I am jittery and anxious the whole time.
I've had some trouble with severe anxiety and panic attacks, but after 6 years intensive therapy they went away mostly. Now they are back. I am emotionally exhausted and confused. Sometimes this anxiety and panic is there without any apparent reason and it is affecting my work.
My previous therapist immigrated, and now that I got used to and started to really 'bond' with my new therapist, she's moved away and therapy is mostly via video calls. It's just not the same and I haven't been able to tell her a 10th of what I told my original therapist.
Back to now. My daughter has been going through a rough time and even though it's completely different from my history and my story, I feel helpless to change her / our circumstances. When she speaks to me about what bothers her, I am mostly able to help, even by just encouraging her. When I am alone though, my mind goes back to my past and when I felt the same way. It distracts me from my duties and makes it more difficult to concentrate on anything with my wayward thoughts.
How do I keep my past from influencing my present and future in such a way? It was under control, and then suddenly it's no more. #Depression #Bipolar #cptsd #SocialAnxiety #confused #Childhoodtrauma

Trigger Warning
I have been struggling with a dilemma. I see myself as a lesbian, because I know that is where my interests lie. However, I don't know whether it is from childhood sexual, emotional and physical abuse, or my failed marriage, or if this is how, deep down, I've always identified.
With my family, we grew up in a very strict and judgemental home, and anything out of the norm is just wrong. My parents never believed me about the abuse, and it went on for 9 years.
I've recently met a ladyfriend, and the interest is mutual. I just know where I belong, but it's going to tear my whole family apart. My daughter knows and supports me, because she wants me to be happy. But even she knows that it will tear the family apart, so we really have almost no-one to share with.
#LGBTQ #Abuse #Love #confused

Over the weekend my family & I received news anyone should not get. My brother who is 35, a year younger than me, passed away😭 He had struggled with mental health illness & other issues. We are working with the investigator to figure out what happened. He was in good spirits last Monday, this does not seem real. I know this had to be an accident, he was looking forward to starting his own business, had 4 doggies to take care of. I know he is in a better place, just gone to soon. I lost my friend, my niece & nephew lost an uncle. Thank you for letting me vent.#mighty #Depression #Anxiety #confused

I really have been very upset that my withdrawal symptoms with my ex still haven't gone away yet even and that makes me very upset, because I can have a lot of emotions in many different kinds of ways #confused

#ADHD #confused

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We’ve been petsitting a dog for like 2 months. I’ve just been around him yesterday. I always see him everyday. He’s 2 years old and a Chow Chow, if that helps. I was close to him yesterday and just petted him yesterday and it was fine. Sometimes, he’d walk up to me to say hi, and it was fine.

This month, he has bit me twice (nothing serious, just a scratch) once when I was walking up to him just to say hi (and I usually do that until he bit me one time), and once when I was trying to move around him. When I was walking up to him this morning (it wasn’t even going to be that close because I was being cautious), he started running up to me aggressively as if he was going to bite me. He did this another time this month, too.

This has only happened to me. Well, he acted aggressive towards my mother once, but most have happened to me. Do dogs just not want to like certain individuals?? Was he just in a bad mood?? Why does he not like me??

And of course, because I’m autistic, it makes me sad and even scared, especially since my sister (the main petsitter) is moving and getting married meaning the dog is likely to stay a few more months until they move. I know I shouldn’t take it personally and that he’s just a dog, but this has only happened to me and the fourth time he’s been aggressive with me when we see each other literally everyday. I’m so confused and so is everyone else.

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #dog #Family #confused #question #petsitting

Recently I’m noticing my lack of being able to stay on task be easily distracted not very motivated, super disorganized, etc might be potentially something else? Personally I’ve always thought 💭 it’s just a personality trait and bad habits I have to work on, helps when I turn off my phone or try to limit distractions but even then it’s really hard to get a lot done, I’m horrible at time management and using the day to the fullest. It’s hard to know whether it’s my normal or if maybe I do have some symptoms or overlap of adhd/ add?

I’ve only been diagnosed with chronic anxiety/ depression. But I know sometimes people can have multiple disorders.
I know only a psychiatrist or doctor etc can know, but guess just wanted to ask any tips if even if you can be low functioning, high functioning, or low on the symptoms / spectrum if you can still be diagnosed.

I feel some symptoms or signs I’m high on and others I rank low so it’s hard to know if it does apply to me or I just have to work on these areas and it’s just tech brain
🧠 bad habits developed or so on.

Thanks for any advice! Maybe I’ll try out some online tests to see how I rank, and eventually ask a psychiatrist or person if I can find one with all the wait lists.

I guess maybe Im scared to develop any more disorders when I already have a heard enough time coping with mine. But if I do have something it’s better to learn how to treat it than ignore it. Or even if I’m not diagnosed or apply to having add or adhd

But could benefit from cbt or techniques people use to cope with similar symptoms or struggles I have? Thanks for any comments!? Guess I somewhat notice it but have had it since my teens so I figure it’s just a part of my character, hard to know if it’s something else or not. #ADHD #ADD #neurodiverse #Brain #Curious #New #mighty #Advice #help #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Tips #CBT #psychology #counselling #Comments #yourexperience #thanks #confused #coping #struggling

My abuser was found guilty and sent to prison to await sentencing. My abuser was a family member and quite honestly I don't know how to feel at the moment. People tell me I should be happy he's gone and got what he deserved and that I should be proud of myself for confronting him during trial. While I am proud of myself for being brave and not giving up when I easily could have, after 4 years of waiting for a trial it's finally done. I cried for the past 2 days. I keep telling myself I don't love or miss him but I still feel like I lost something. There will never be a chance to talk to him, to try and understand why he did what he did. I won't attend sentencing because I am too tired of the legal process. Yet if I don't go I will never see him again. He will most likely die in prison. Other family members have sent me threatening messages such as saying they hope I kill myself. I was scared that this person would find me but luckily they did not. My #PTSD symptoms are somewhat reduced now that it's over but I'm still a bit shook up. Honestly I don't know how to feel right now. I'm not angry I know that. I just don't know what I'm feeling. I don't know if this is normal or not. Luckily I can start therapy again so that will help a lot. I'm just so tired. How do you move on from something like this?

#SexualAbuse #SexualAssault #PTSD #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Family #Grief #Loss #confused #Healing