tryingtobehopefull

Hi guys, I’m new here and I’m really looking to make some friends who understand my struggles...I feel so different and “crazy” most days...I’m confused and a little lost on this whole BPD thing. Some days I think I’ve accepted it, and other days I feel as if I’ll lose the people I love, when I master up the courage to tell them I have BPD.

Anxiety and depression are one thing, so widely accepted and understood, but BPD just isn’t. I’ve read so much about BPD online and listened about it through podcasts. Some of those leaving me feeling sad and like a monster, others giving me hope.

I would love for anyone who is reading to reach out, share experiences/thoughts or become my friend.

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I’ve been struggling hard, really hard. It hasn’t been this bad for me in long while. I’ve had constant bouts of depression, that never really leaves me. But I’ve been able to keep going and always knew I would make it through back to being okay.

This time is like it used to be. I constantly feel like I can’t breathe. I shouldn’t drive because I can’t focus and I’m afraid I’m going to hurt someone. I’m not hungry, anything other than laying in my bed takes so much out of me. It takes me two hours just to get out of bed and I barely make it through work every day.

I feel so alone. I feel disgusting.

I brushed my teeth for the first time since I don’t know when, yesterday. At first I was proud, but then I felt stupid for feeling proud and disappointed in myself because I literally couldn’t remember when the last time I brushed them.

I took a shower this morning for the first time in 9 days. Again, a flood of disappointment in myself.

I feel like I should be better, I feel like I’m pushing as hard as I can but I don’t feel like it’s enough.