Co-Vid19 has had the entire country shut down for 14 days. I feel so much more infinitely isolated than I was already battling due to chronic illness and complex ptsd. I've been angry,sad,scared,and exhausted all in their own time. So now I will attempt to be brave. I believe there is power in numbers. I believe there is peace and happiness that lies somewhere for us all. We just have to be up to the quest of discovering it. It has been so incredibly long since I have truly let anyone in to see the effects of my dark broken childhood that has conditioned my mind and my body for that indescribable trauma response. I want to feel something other than fight or flight. I'm tired of choosing to hide my breaking heart, my tired soul. My daughter brings so much love and light to my life. Am I greedy to want more??