whatisthepoint

I lost my job of 15 years at Christmas due to fibromyalgia and depression and anxiety. They 'retired' me through ill health. I loved my job, I was a school lab technician. Now, all I know is empty days and pain. I can't walk my dogs anymore, everything is limited because of pain. So my depression is at rock bottom, I'm 55 but see no future. I have no money, I'm at the mercy of the benefits system which is a nightmare.
My doctor's don't help me and today I've just about had enough. #whatisthepoint #existingnotliving