Frozen, weak & tired. Over & over I try. When I get excited because I think I see a light at the tunnels end. I only realize how deep in the tunnal I am. Oh so much deeper than I thought. It feels overwheming. (for beief moments I think I see glimpses of me again but, nope not even close.) Hope is very hard to keep scrambling for & when I see glimpses of it, I start to feel sad or not care to reach it. Its beginning to feel like something unattainable. Such small pieces its not worth the effort to try to fight so hard for so little. (Sorry such a downer.)