youarenotcrazy

Hey guys! Every single time I came onto this chat, I was either using or was going to use. I was severely addicted to cough meds weed and practically all downers. I have felt different my entire life. I have now had a profound "spiritual awakening" that I always read over and over in the big book but never understood. I am liam, and I don't even care anymore how many days I have sober not bc im not sober but for the sole purpose of taking it one day at a time. I have had a huge self discovery and died about 10 days ago and was not supposed to make it. I wayyy overtook opiates and psychedelics. When I first got to the hospital. I felt like people were looking at me differently. But I am telling u I don't care what u believe in as long as u believe in something. I went from 10 meds to 3. I went from my own therapist and many others strategically planning my funeral for years and putting me down. I went from first off about to be sent to a state psych ward and being misdiagnosed with catatonic schizophrenia to now finally being believed and not one psych ward would accept me. 4 out of 5 residentials denied me. But diamond behavioral health listened. I hop on a plane by myself today at 7:50pm to Florida and although I recognize life is definitely far from perfect... i got wheeled into the icu not expecting to make it and have permanemt brain damage on july 28th and and now i am flying to florida today by myself on a plane for the first time today... and this is where my life begins. Thank u to everywhere in the past 4 years that have all been the stepping stones in my recovery to finally finding me. Whats your story?