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I wanted to share the link for my blog on here. I have been trying to work myself up to sharing this publicly for over a year. I finally did it! I want everyone to know and share my story. My blog covers a lot of it. But I have so much more to tell.

Please if you feel the need to, share this any and everywhere. I want to help all those people out there that think they are alone. Including those of you on here that are feeling alone. You are NOT. I am here if anyone ever wants to talk at all.

#Depression #Anxiety #Suicide #SuicideSurvivor #PTSD #youarenotalone #MentalHealth #checkin

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I was diagnosed with ADHD and Dyslexia at the age of 20. It was when I started my first job back in August 2022 in a law office that I realized how my dyslexia would get in the way of my work. This week I was fired from my job, and one of the reasons I was fired was because I couldn't spell. Their reasoning was that I didn't have the skills necessary to be a receptionist, which required spelling. Listening to my supervisor's reasoning for firing me made me doubt my abilities and made me feel self-conscious about my diagnosis. This news overall has made me feel like a failure and worthless because I can't control my ADHD and Dyslexia. #youarenotalone If you are an employer, please treat your employees with kindness instead of judgment because you don't know what they might be going through. #ADHD #Dyslexia

There's days I don't understand when I feel so alive and ready to conquer the world. My mind keeps thinking, I come up with a great idea but then I forget what the great idea was. Other days I can't get up and feel sluggish and just want to sleep all day. Then the fun days I get up and start cleaning, organizing, planning, wiping things down around the home and it feels so good inside like a just woke up with all this energy inside that needs to burn down. And by the middle of the day, I'm so worn off and ready to lay down. #Anxiety is when you just can't stop moving or worrying. #Adrenaline is having too much energy in your blood. #MoodDisorders #Mania is one of the things that can be good or bad. Some last and some don't. #StayStrong #youarenotalone

Twas on the eve a day past Labor
She bid a permanent adieu,
As summer ebbed to autumn's glow
Her next season began anew.

A battle zone right from the start
Embarked the day her mother bore,
This quiet, shy and timid girl
Whose heart the world broke to its core.

Through years of hurt, abuse, neglect
Watched safety climax in dead ends,
Yet knew not of the only One
Whose grace would soon be her best friend.

Instead found solace in the likes
Of pills, booze, money, drugs and sex,
These multiplied trauma ten-fold
Until her only thought was death.

Evil of which free will had shown
Weighted this heart heavy with pain,
Shame filtered through the devil's voice
A crux of self-blame swathed in chains.

And then one night she did attempt
Cause hope was nowhere in plain sight,
Grief, anger, guilt topped off a soul
Far too distraught to stay and fight.

Yet freedom found was not in death
But in the life He would rebirth,
By virtue of a spirit sent
Was finally found her Godly worth.

A story shared, not unlike hers
Held but one difference….and the key,
Of whom she coined an earth angel
Not long before, God set him free.

He utilized thorns of this man
To guide His little girl back home,
Free will this time, a choice for good
Now glorifies our Father's throne.

By: Debra Brent
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#Poetry #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Healing #poet #purposeinthepain #personalitydisorder #mentalheath #struggling #artfromtheheart #youarenotalone #SuicideAwareness #BPD #EUPD #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Shame #Guilt #Grief #Addiction #Trauma #godsgotyou #Faith #testimonial