Why I Got a Semicolon and Cross Tattoo After My Suicide Attempt

I got these tattoos last year, the cross and the semicolon, a few weeks after I was released from the hospital after a suicide attempt. These symbols are permanent reminders of what’s brought me this far in life and how much I still have left to live for. On the hardest days of my depression, I can look at the cross and semicolon and remember that, because of Jesus and the strength he’s given me through faith, medication and therapy, my story goes on.

When I have days in which I feel like giving up the fight, the cross helps me to remember I can face the hard things life throws at me and come out victoriously on the other side. I’m reminded that the darkest nights give way to the brightest days. I find the strength to hold on and to remember this life is worth living.

Looking at the semicolon gives me the courage to be hopeful about my future. It is a visual representation of the fact there is so much more I want to do, so much I want to be, so much I have to live for. There is so much more to my story, and I want to be here to write it.

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