So I have multiple mental illnesses as well as chronic pain, arthritis and fibromyalgia along with many other health issues. I’ve been so depressed that I’m embarrassed by the complete and total mess my house is, I try to tell myself everyday that I’m going to clean and clean everyday all it is, is a lie to myself. My relationship is suffering terribly to the point that we barely talk to each other. We’ve been together for almost 22 years and I feel like he would be better off if he just left. I’m in severe pain and have no medication to take for it. I just want this pain to stop, both the physical and the mental. I know they say that ending your suffering just passes it on to the ones you leave behind and I don’t want to hurt my son. He is what has kept me going for 20 years. I just don’t want to live in all this pain anymore. #sickofbeinginpain