When a Stranger Said She’d Kill Herself if She Had My Disease

About two months ago, I was getting my regular blood test since I have rheumatoid arthritis (RA). It was busy on this particular day, so I struck up a conversation with the woman sitting next to me to pass the time.

I noticed she had exercise gear on so I asked her what she does to stay fit. We chatted about the gym and the exercises we each do.

She then asked me why I’m having blood tests done (I saw her eyeing the ankle brace on my left leg.) I told her I have rheumatoid arthritis and explained briefly what it is. This was her response: “Rather than going to the gym, you’d be better off killing yourself. That’s what I’d do. I’d kill myself if I had what you have.” I’m normally quick off the mark with comebacks, but I was so shocked I couldn’t respond.

While I might not have been able to respond at the time, I decided to even out the universe with some good karma, particularly since those same blood tests showed for the first time in two years my RA was in remission!

After a lot of thought, I decided to do some fundraising for rheumatoid arthritis research. Less than a month from now, I’ll be participating in a 226-kilometer team indoor Ironman challenge, which includes a 4-kilometer row, 180 kilometers on an exercise bike and 42 kilometers on a cross trainer.

I can’t do a traditional Ironman event because of my joint pain, but that’s kind of the point. How I do something in life may not look the same as the next person, but my life certainly has value, and there’s a lot I can contribute to the world. Unfortunately, there will always be people in the world who will be quick to judge, but I’m proud I took the opportunity to turn hate into hope.