My family think i need some "voodoo" help because of my constant fluctuation of emotions and being a manipulator. can I just say sometimes I feel like I am not me, feeling tired with my own self, being over the top for 1 day and then feel like that you are living a loop of dooms days...The constant fear of myself, the little fantasy world I have created which consist with recklessness, drinking, intense drug use and occasional high sense of self when I let other people to give me validations like "Wow, you are cool", "You should become celebrity", dying my hair green, yellow, thinking that it may uplift my moods and feel normal but again, "What is normal"? Is it me avoiding rationality because reality is too much for? Is it me fighting with my mind while not know who I am without these diagnoses?? Is it me, coming to work 3 hours late and knock off late because I have convinced myself that atleast I am compensating my hours, unproductive hours????

Tired Simi92