Living with constant pain alters my personality.
I've lived with a severe back injury since 2003. It has only gotten worse over the years and multiple (8) failed surgeries. My anxiety has gotten much worse over past 3 years as well. No one seems to care or understand how this affects my personality? I've been alone for many years, I find other people intimidating. I stopped dating 10 years ago, choosing to be alone because I feel that I'm not good enough or worthy of being loved. If it wasn't for my 28 year old son, who lives with me, I'd not speak to others for weeks. I've become so accustomed to laying propped up in the bed watching tv all alone, so much that I no longer miss having companionship. My son is verbally abusive but I allow it because I feel like I deserve no better. I can't imagine living without him?