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Ok so sleep apnea isn’t the funkiest of problems. It doesn’t get the press that other things do. And if I’m being honest is probably the easiest problem I have to deal with.

But the noise.....

Ok so I have always had a problem with noise. As a youngster I was tested over and over for what we now know as tinnitus. I have enjoyed loud concerts and been around racing engines, one way or another, all my life. My hearing, apart from tinnitus, is spot on. How my brain interprets that noise s a different matter.

But that’s not the reason for this post......

ITS THE BLINKIN NOISE.....

So anyone that uses one of these machines will know, the machine is silent, or so it seems. But strap that animal harness to your head, with that nose bag on and it’s like your standing in an air tunnel. The noise is horrendous. Put in earplugs and it sounds like the noise is coming from the bowels of the earth.....in fact the wind needed to put out the fires of hell.

I tried putting soothing sounds on my Alexa device. Thinking this might lull me....no hope. To hear it I had to turn it up. Kinda going against the noise thing.

I tried wireless buds ffs to say the least was no good and the same could be said about headphones.....but I did try.

I looked a those Bose sleepbuds......seriously expensive and then I found out they are not noise cancelling in the way I would like and they play sounds to lull you to sleep. Again against the noise thing along with the other tried and tested noise emitting apparatus.

This morning, after dealing with the dogs, my normal formalities and my medication.....I fell onto the bed. Usually. If I feel like this I would put my mask on and sleep.
Today I relished the silence. I mean other than the ever present tinnitus .....it was silent. For me a complete rarity. Is been so many years since I’d heard silence. And I miss it like an old best forever friend. Like snuggling, embracing......like real.....nothing. There was something restful just there in my grasp......

And then it was gone.

Miss you xx

Good night everyone my cpap is back.

I post this pic in my social media account not all of my circle knew about my situation I got mixed when they reacted to it. I feel good because I found out that a lot of my friends were concern about me and I feel sad because I make them worry about me. I have no choice but to move on this too shall pass.