My 4 yr old and my 11 year old are the most beautiful souls i have ever witnessed. How do i deal with this... I HATE my existance. How dare GOD give such beautifully made creations to the horrendous likes of me?? Is this a joke GOD?? Its not funny. Do you think its fair for this little man to say "I love you mommy sooo much!" To someone like me?? I do NOT deserve them and they deserve FAR better than me. How do i deal with my anger at GOD for cursing me, hating me, using me as a punching bag and as soon as i stop fighting, stop hoping for a reason to live, gifting me two amazing souls to nourish and help grow when i have nothing left in me to give..... How DARE he... #angryatgod #ButYouDontLookSick #sickinthehead #cruelcreator #theydeservebetter #Depression #PTSD #Broken