But You Don’t Look Sick

You will never know how it feels to be me
Just breathing everyday feels like darkness is all I see
I’ve never felt normal with those around me
I just can’t help but to wish they would all accept me
Why can’t you understand my mental illness controls me
Stop saying I need to be happy like everyone should be
I wish I was absent sometimes so I can stop explaining myself
But leaving will make everyone think I gave up on life itself

❤️I love you and I’m proud of you❤️ #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ButYouDontLookSick #Depression #Community #normal #empty #Empathy

Yes, I wear lipstick. Yes, Eminem was playing from my car. Yes, I am 44 years old. Yes, I had to get groceries before the winter storm arrived. Yes, I have handicapped plates. Yes, the car belongs to me as do the plates. (❗️AND❗️) Yes, I see your dirty looks, glaring, shaking of heads, whispering and ignorant assumptions of what a handicapped person looks like. I owe you no explanation of my disability. You are not entitled to my health history. The audacity of people to verbalize comments 'that's a handicapped parking spot,' 'stop using your grandma car,' 'I'm going to report you.'
Listen assholes, I have more metal in my body than an aluminum can recycling center. I have Avascular Necrosis (AVN) or Osteonecrosis. I have rods, pins, plates, screws etc holding this body together. My hips went first. Bilateral hip replacements. Second, my left shoulder. Shoulder replaced. Third, knees. Bilateral knee replacements. Fourth, left ankle. Same story, same dance.
Like most, some days are better than others. Sometimes I need a cane, sometimes I don't. Sometimes I can get in/out of my car with minimal difficulty. Other times it takes me 10 minutes to align my hips, legs and feet to the ground.
Basically FK YOU and your dirty looks. #AvascularNecrosis #Osteonecrosis #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #InvisibleDisability #InvisibleIllness #Disability #ButYouDontLookSick #Youdont knowme

I’m not even sure where to ask this question. I have been dry heaving and vomiting over the last two months and it has been increasing. Taking a shower and strong odors trigger it. No chance of pregnancy. Has anyone experienced these symptoms? #MightyQuestions #ButYouDontLookSick

I’m always nauseous and have no idea what’s causing it. I am dizzy from time to time but not enough to be triggering this. Originally I believed it was medication related but it’s been almost two months and it subsided after the first week or so. I’m not sure when to ask for help, it’s making work a living nightmare.

No before you ask, I’m not sexually active. You have to be touched/see others and apart from my parents/cats I don’t see anyone other than my coworkers.

Work is super stressful but nothing I’ve been finding it what’s causing it, I’ve been to the doctor and she keeps dismissing me. As if my mental health issues weren’t enough, I’m so sick of being sick!
#ButYouDontLookSick #CheckInWithMe #Anxiety #frustrated

I have no idea what’s going on with my body. I assumed it was the high humidity in the area I live. It normally doesn’t get that warm nor humid. I assumed it was this combined with my meds. It was a tough week for me and the humidity finally broke. Now though I’m still dealing with this lightheaded/ upset stomach, nausea and bad diarrhea. Which has left me feeling tired and lethargic.

They are remodeling at my place of work, and now that summer has started they’ve hit the ground running ripping walls/ceilings you name it apart. However I’m not quick to blame them due to not having these issues at the last school I worked at. Same district, I’m just at a new older building. They have also been working on this building throughout the last year so that’s why I don’t think it’s them.

I’m beyond upset and have no idea what’s going on. I’m sorry that this might sound frantic and rambling but I don’t know what else to do. I’m planning to schedule a doctors appointment but am afraid that will not help. My current doctor doesn’t seem to listen and instead makes me feel dumb. Those that are apart of my support system think I’m making all this up. Believe me, I wouldn’t wish this hurt on someone.

Any help or suggestions would mean a lot to me. #CheckInWithMe #help #lost #confused #ButYouDontLookSick