For about Three days now I've been Entering that state of Deep Depression and just Feeling Really Anxious and Feeling that I will Never get OVER this #depressionrelapse #RecurrentDepression
In a relapse of my severe depression / bipolar II over the past couple of weeks. I tried mowing the lawn this morning, applied bug spray so the bugs wouldn’t send me over the edge, and wore what I wore to bed so to save energy. Then, a minute in, I got the mower stuck. I gave up with rage. I can’t stop imagining my husband having a life with someone he deserves, who is able to have fun on a nice sunny Sunday, and not drag him down into this mental mess -unlike me. I have so much to be thankful for: him, my dogs, my home, a yard at all to mow, and yet here I am in bed sobbing. This guilt is hard to bear and hard to get rid of. Thank you for reading.
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