disapointed

#depressed So, it wasn't a dream job but I had finally found a job. It was a work at home job. It was decent pay. I signed a contract. Things were looking up. I was up front about my background check and what they would find. So now I get an email saying that they decided not to hire me. 🤬😭 So #depressed right now.

I have tried so hard for so long not to cut. Its been over a year and today gave in. My body has already been reacting to my struggles, constricting my throat and digging nails into my palms theyve callused. Today after more issues on top of issues im done. Failed once again. #Selfharm #Fail #disapointed #Hatemyself