So for the last 2-4 years I have been contemplating an Autism Diagnosis.
This gets tricky and challenging as a female…
As,
A lot of the research focuses on how the spectrum presents in males.

Which is likely why every doctor I’ve spoken to says “you don’t seem Autistic” and doesn’t even take a second to listen to my social proof OR be willing to even get what the concept of masking is!

I’m feeling at my wits end.
I will get my diagnosis one way or another— I have 5,000 words compiled of my plethora of “symptoms” it’s weird calling them symptoms but that’s just me.

I no longer feel the Bipolar diagnosis can apply to me. It isn’t mine and it doesn’t fit.
I am a person with autism, it’s ridiculously evident and makes me cry in great pain thinking of all the signs.
All of the signs my neurodivergent self has presented constantly!
But no they want to just stick me on drugs I guess 🤷‍♀️

I am sad that I have to prove myself to people who are supposed to listen.
I am angry that no one noticed how much of a struggle life is for me- NO it’s not just anxiety!

I want the label! I want to be seen as who I am inside my differently abler brain.
I want an explanation for my isolation, alienation and, suffering.
I want to know that I’m not just a failed wrong human who doesn’t fit but am a product of my brain being wired differently!

— Bridie, out ✌️

#rant #Autism #femaleautistic #ASD #sad #disapointedinmedicalprofessionals