Dontfitin

As I sit here in my Flat in England 6000 kms away from anyone and anything familiar, I think I am never going to be ok.
I have tried everything to “fit in” and it has not helped. I really think I need to unplug from society. So tired of over thinking to
the point I get physically ill. I question everything, even the times I feel good, like I am not supposed to ever feel anything. #feelingsodisappointedinmyself #depressionsucks

I just don’t fit in here, in this world. Tonight I feel like I should kill myself so I will quit being a burden to the ones I love. I just wanna die. But I can’t bring myself to go through with it. So I guess I’ll just keep going even though I want to die.