EmotionalBreakdown

I own a pet sitting business with my ex. Yesterday afternoon I was out walking a client's dog. While walking I will often look at my phone to pass some time. While scrolling through Facebook I came across one of the many ads, this one for online mental health therapy.

As I scrolled through the ads webpage looking for more information I came across these two seemingly innocuous paragraphs and nearly had a breakdown. I had to hold it in every inch of the walk after reading it as it wouldn't look good to go mental in the middle of a neighborhood.

Mind you, because of my current poor psychiatric care and issues with my insurance I have been off of one of my meds since the middle of February.

I have tried to do my psychiatrist's job that I don't get paid extra to do in order to find out why my script isn't being filled. I was told by my insurance that the psychiatrist needs to call in to fix the problem. This is something my psych and or her staff should know they need to do.

Meanwhile, I am on the verge of another breakdown but trying hard to remain stable. And while I have many friends who offer to give support I wish more than anything there was something they could do. Not only am I extremely hesitant to ask but I can't overcome the feeling of being a burden no matter how much they say I'm not, a few of you will understand that.

Thankfully I do have my ex-girlfriend who is my best friend and has been with me every step of the way. She is the one person I know I can be a burden upon and she will help the best she can, she is not equipped to deal with me nor has she ever needed to until I came along but she tries. I still have the feeling I'm being a PIA but she never makes me feel that way as I know none of my friends would but it's still difficult even with her at times. However, I am fighting the best I can.

Be well and hug your loved ones!