So this is a whole new mf’ing concept in my world. I’m of course referring to my posting on an NA online meeting site, as well as to never in the last 4+ years having the balls to want to get clean but now is the only thing I’ve been throwing my energy towards. Hoping wholeheartedly that it’s actually the right decision and I’m not just gonna end up back in my neck of the woods, which is states away too; doing the same dumb shit with the same mf’ers who have no desire in anyway to be better than the person they were the day before.... I hope that my post doesn’t end up finding its way to cripple me and my new found Florida self esteem. I so badly want to heal. To rewire myself, to the best of my abilities anyhow. But being a disappointment and failure has come to be the social norm of my family. .. so there’s always that too...+ My dog now thinks I must have deserted him...
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