Generalanxiety

For the past what seems like ever I have struggled with many different mental illnesses. I have really became some form of a monster, that is eaten up with and #Doubt, I feel as if I have lost who I used to be. I used to feel so full of life, but a few years ago something in my brain just flipped and I feel like its just been an internal war against myself to try to win myself back. Between my panic attacks that always leave me feeling stuck in the , my #Generalanxiety with everything in my life, my racing thoughts, and my depression, I feel like I would be better off under a pile of leaves in the woods somewhere. I can't believe there was once a me that could just so effortlessly do things. There was once a me who despite the anxiety, still believed in herself enough to be worth something. I feel as if there is a blockage in my aura, in my life, and it's causing me to wake up every day just overwhelmed and ate alive with anxiety from having to go work with the public, come home, lay in bed, sleep all day, go work with the public, and repeat. Its quite a and I know I need to do more and spend my freetime being productive but where is that drive I used to have? where did that energy I used to have run off too? I used to just walk miles and miles to my friends house for the hell of it, now I feel like it's too much work to even put my dishes in the sink. I feel like a toxic person to be around, I just feel like I need to be smacked and reset. But it's not gonna be that easy. #Reality