I as if nothing is worth it. I wake up each day in a fog, I am exhausted and cannot shake the feeling of hopelessness.

It wasn't always like this, I lost weight, I socialised, I had a boyfriend. Then it went wrong and now I have gained weight, no social life and the boyfriend has long gone.

Nothing feels good anymore, it's as if I am just trudging along until I die. Not that I want to die, that scares the shit out of me and when these thoughts of the end appear they give me fear and sleepless nights.

This grey limbo is suffocating and noone seems to understand. Talking about these things just make people withdraw, or because you mention death they think you're suicidal (I'm not). I feel as if I'm going mad.

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