So after some physical therapy thanks to some “wow you’re lucky to be alive and not paralyzed!” (🙄) caliber car accidents, it was P-A-I-N-S-T-A-K-I-N-G-L-Y slow to heal to a point where I realized that “soft tissue injury” meant ie your muscles and tendons and etc, I THEN realized that I guess in that way, my lifelong pressure cooker response to #GrowingUpTraumed and developing #CPTSD likely saved my spine from being torn because…for my entire life?!!! **I didn’t even know what soft tissue was because my muscles have felt like stone!**

So much so, that I’m to a point that, being too financially poor to afford the LMT and PT the docs say I need, doing warm baths with epsom salt & relaxing scents, stretching in the AM and every few hours when sitting, etc just isn’t cutting it; and when my muscles can’t relax I can’t breathe well. When I can’t breathe well I panic or rage a lot easier than my hair-trigger emotions can already get set off and so…

Free (or very cheap) and mostly healthy suggestions for bodily relaxation?? Somatic healing?

I will take suggestions from manual manipulations I don’t yet know about (I have a foam roller and a trigger point release stick thing, the epsom salt lotion, muscle relaxers, nada works!), to links to your most restorative yoga or progressive muscle relaxation playlists, music recommendations, whatever!!!

And for god sakes if anyone knows where the hell I can find programs/apps/links for relaxation virtual reality devices that clip to your cell phone, I’ll take those too; I heard the military is using VR to relax their ptsd guys and managed to get a VR device for super cheap awhile ago but can’t find where/how to use it!?!!

Any other thoughts or experiences y’all have with any somatic healing via practitioners are also welcome - the more I realize my mind is mostly healed but that my body seems to have too many muscle memories to stop setting off my bodily symptoms to then bother my mind, the more I think about leaving psychotherapy but don’t know what type to change to…?