HealingStill

Apart from always being tired although having enough sleep, you never know when it hits again. Two weeks ago I basically felt good but than again Depression came back. I'd been pretty fine a while before that. Now I'm constantly having this dull feeling. I've always been a funny person and I really like to laugh. But than Depression kicks in telling me I'm not allowed to because well I should be depressed. It's hard to learn that you're allowed to be happy even when sick with an illness nobody sees. However what I've learned so far is that healing is not linear. It takes time and sometimes when you take one step forward, you're falling lots of behind and that's okay. There are days I feel like giving up but I'm glad that I'm still alive. It's a tiring battle. I just hope it's worth it in the end.

#Depression #healingisnotlinear #HealingStill #Mentalillnessfeelslike #MentalHealth #mentalillnessistiring

Trama entered my life 16 years ago very aggressively and seemed to make appearances often for the few years following. It’s been a long, demanding and confusing rollercoaster like journey but time has made the pain and craziness less apparent with each year, month, day, and often hours that pass. The thought is fathomable now that my painful events are specific to my life and I can’t seek someone that has had exact experiences. Each day gets better. #MyFeelingsMatter