As an #Incestsurvior I tend to beat myself up over everything little thing. I tear myself down, rather than build myself up. I have a very negative internal dialogue, which I assume stems from years of abuse. I have a lot of self hate and blame regarding what I’ve been through.
Recently however, I’ve started to look at things from a different perspective. I’ve reminded myself of that facts of the situation (such as I was a child when the abuse began and my parents were supposed to protect me). I’ve been reading about the effects of trauma and about others experiences with trauma. It makes me feel less alone and more validated.
I’ve been coming to the realization that I need to show myself some grace and compassion. For example, when I get triggered or overly emotional to NOT beat myself up and realize that it stems from the trauma. I’ve made a decision to see myself as a survivor and not a victim. I’m determined to work on more self love and care, giving myself the things that I did not receive before.
I often bulk at kindness or compliments because I have this strong distrust that it’s either fake or they want something from me. I am determined to work on this also. To any trauma survivor that needs to hear this: You need to snow yourself compassion and grace. You are working towards healing. It is not pretty, but it is possible. Utilize your resources. Reach out if you need to.
Don’t further traumatize or disrespect yourself by not practicing self care. I hear you and I am rooting for you. What you have been through does not dictate who you are or what you are capable of. Though it gets hard, keep fighting. You are worth it. Life is worth living.
Breathe and love yourself ❤️
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