I called him crying. I'm tired. I give up. He told me to drink some #Hennessy , but it's been 26 hours since my last meal. Adding a #toxin to my already withering body isn't what I need. Just please someone tell me what I need. #Selflove , #Selfharm ..... I'm not sure it matters. I guess I hope this is a safe place to post. #SuicidalThoughts aren't something I can handle alone. I suffered a #Stroke during this photoshoot 😔. I'm trying to be #strong .