Suicidal thoughts
There is sometimes extreme abuse in my house and then I think that suicide is the only answer for I have given all of myself my whole life, there is no other way, and when love ceases there is no other option, as I don't wish to hurt anyone as deeply as I have been hurt ever again, or be alone wandering and travelling ever again, so I nurse on and get abused on, and sometimes every way I ever had of reaching out or contacting anyone is taken from me, or calling for help for that matter, I'm ok when I sleep if not being screamed at or asked for sex when I'm weak from meds, but hey that's my life, once had a celtic dream once, never getting that back, husband you have won in every way that was ever possible, when is suicide murder?