#Anxiety #codependacy #hypervigile #Depression #ididn 'tknow. I was living my life like I was normal. I minimilized everything including molestation, gang rape, neglect, sick parents and so much more. I didn't think that I was abnormal and thought it was not a big deal until I couldn't ignore it. All this had a profound effect on my body. I used to have anxiety attacks for no reason, lost hair, my feet were always blue and so much more that I actually thought was normal. I poured blood from my rectum and didn't sleep naturally for over 36 years. I had nerve pain and my whole body hit the wall but I blamed it on cervical bone spurs and general pain. My daughter made me go to a rheumatologist because my Ana was positive and she was also worried about my mental health but I had no clue what she was talking about. When I went to the Dr reluctantly he looked at my feet and asked if my feet were always blue, they were blue and numb and I was embarrassed. These were my feet always. He told me that I have autonomic nervous system disfunction caused by autoimmune or trauma. I was so upset and he took blood. He asked if I ever heard of low dose naltrexone and I haven't. I never even heard of my diagnosis let alone this unknown compound medication or that you can ever get something physical from what I thought was nothing and normal. After that visit my world changed considerably. My feet started changing colors, my vision was different, I started feeling a sense of self that I didn't know I never had. All my pain went away and so much more that was crazy. Nobody told me that I had ckd but I couldn't drink or eat like how normal people do. I went to the bathroom without laxatives. I can go on and on but I actually slept on my own. I didn't have autoimmune disease. All this was from a life time of trauma and I didn't realize that my life was abnormal. I don't even shake or have bad reactions anymore. If I wasn't prescribed this unknown compound medication I would have lived my life but I think my brain would have died just like my father. I'm so greatful beyond words