I reached out to emptiness- no one took me serious or could see how I was crying for help from whatever was happening within me.

Further down the line, no one noticed I wasn't on social media. It had become too much to bare, when I used all resources and reached out to people there as well.

Now that this virus has people isolated do they try to find everything possible to communicate. Video chats, phone calls, apps, letters, going for a walk, etc. Do you know how many times I longed for this. How many times I reached out to emptiness!?

Being in a better place, now returned knowing emotions and feeling guilt is the one I experience for feeling upset. I should feel thankful even for the one person reaching out more often but its only their need for me. I'm upset .... sigh.

Open journaling, hoping this helps me stay on track 😩 thanks for letting me vent.

#Anxiety #Derealization #Dissasociation #Depression #Idontwantto #Idontwanttogiveitaname