I don't know how to carry this heavy weight of all the need in the world. But I don't know how to lay it down. To turn away from suffering feels like the most horrible thing, but to turn toward it means that I may drown. I don't have the energy to do anything about all these needs brought to my attention in the messages I get from former students and coworkers and friends around the world. I have so many privileges and so much relative wealth, and to not use them makes me feel like a bad person. After living in so many places around the world where need is so palpable I could taste it, I cannot claim ignorance. But I can't carry all of this. I don't know what to do. It's crushing me.

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