Iwantpeace

I wish my head would shut up. I can’t unravel it all and I’m so confused and tired of living this way. I understand I might be having a bad day, but this is so unbearable. I have no control over the thoughts and I understand that’s part of the problem, control, but I wish there was a moment of silence & an opportunity for me to rest. #OCD #control #PureO #Iwantpeace

The situation with my parents is paralyzing and I don't think I've ever felt this invisible in my entire life. On one hand I try to stay positive and sperate myself from them as much as possible and on the other hand, I get shut down by them pretty much every day.
The thing is, I can't just focus on being productive or whatever when I'm trying to survive. I mean, you can't talk to anyone about anything so, what I'm trying to say is that my teachers have really high expectations of me and it's not like I can talk to them about what's really going on with our 'family'. I can't help but feel like I'll never have time to heal. I just have to somehow meet their expectations. They have every right to expect that high of me but I'm just struggling so much this year.
#INeedTime #Iwantpeace