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    Well that's it. I am on the path to self sabotage

    I've stayed home for the past 3 days

    I lashed out at my therapist today and was real nasty. She even got frustrated herself. But I caused that

    My friend got frustrated as they're trying to help me, but I just refuse to let them in

    Trauma processing lead me down a bad path of realizations that I refuse to "heal"

    I'm done with this fucking painful ass journey

    And so with that I have failed

    I have officially became an abuser

    My hope is that this path of self sabotage, damage, and pain will lead me to taking my life

    I'd rather be dead than to face this stupid journey

    #Suicide #Abuse #control #friend

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    I wish my head would shut up. I can’t unravel it all and I’m so confused and tired of living this way. I understand I might be having a bad day, but this is so unbearable. I have no control over the thoughts and I understand that’s part of the problem, control, but I wish there was a moment of silence & an opportunity for me to rest. #OCD #control #PureO #Iwantpeace

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    Self Destructiveness. #MentalHealth #control guns like the “militia” are well regulated.

    My body was very harshly treated by me many years ago. From that experience, my body, the sum of its organs, was a separate identity from myself. I think it’s because I was such a traitor for deliberately harming myself (I attempted suicide) that I was forced to stop by way of drug addiction/recovery. But we always have a choice.

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    It’s the small things

    <p>It’s the small things</p>
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    I recently had to start going to the chiropractor because I have two herniated disks. It is here that I’ve realized I have some serious triggers when I don’t feel in control. It’s not really from the doctor touching me. He’s really kind and understanding/stops if I need a minute. It’s bad when I have to do part of my treatment though.

    There’s this part where they kinda have to strap you to a table to stretch your back out. The triggering part is mostly the strap that goes around my ribs. The hip one is less bad but being strapped at all starts to terrify me and I feel like I need to get out fast or something will happen. I think it gives me flashbacks but if I’m honest I don’t like looking at them so I choose not to if that’s makes sense.

    The team has been so cool with it but I feel like a failure since I can’t control it how I want. I don’t have money to keep doing therapy right now so please don’t tell me I just need therapy. I do love my therapist though and look forward to returning when I can. Thank you guys.
    #CPTSD #control #PTSD #AbuseSurvivors #Chiropractor

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    Moving and decluttering stress #Anxiety

    I'm in the process of moving and I feel like I'm such a control freak and struggle to get rid of things. I've got so much stuff that it's overwhelming my partner and I and when he tries to pack I get mad because I fear he will do it wrong but then I'm annoyed that he isn't doing as much. It's really affecting his mental health and causes serious issues. I wish I was better at just getting rid of stuff but it's so hard. I'm also struggling with motivation with packing because I'm overwhelmed and need to sell so much furniture.

    I know I have struggled with control before. I have an eating disorder past.and have talked about control with my therapist. I feel the need to try and control everything in my life to the point I'm afraid of death of my pets and loved ones because I'm scared I can't control it even though I try.

    #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Depression #Guilt #ADHD #control #moving #overwhelmed #Stress #MentalHealth

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    Do I have an eating disorder?

    <p>Do I have an <a href=" disorder" class="tm-embed-link  tm-autolink health-map" data-id="5b23ce7a00553f33fe991c1e" data-name="eating disorder" title="eating disorder" target="_blank">eating disorder</a>?</p>
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    Loss of Control

    What are some things that you have done this year to have a feeling of control? I feel like I’ve lost so much or had decisions made for me because of Covid. I was recently talking to a friend and they suggested making some new holiday traditions as having something “stable” that I get to choose. Curious if anyone has some ideas? Or maybe this will just help someone who feels the same way ❤️ #Christmas #COVID19 #Depression #control

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    The book that will change your mindset. ✨

    <p>The book that will change your mindset. ✨</p>
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