IWantToBeNormalAgain

#ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #CPTSD #Jealousy #codependancy #Relationships #IWantToBeNormalAgain

today I am doing something I never thought I would do..... and that is tell someone how I feel. I downloaded this app hoping I would find some sort of comfort.... because I don’t know where to go anymore. I can’t bring myself to show my face to someone and have them watch me cry... so I guess I’ll hide behind my phone where I know I am safe. I’ve been sad for so long... and I can’t bring myself to actively do something about it, but I can’t stand being alone any more. so I’m here... I’m sitting here silently crying in the same room as my boyfriend... he has his headphones on and playing a game... joking with his friends and laughing like he does every night. and I am here, crying, like I do every night. he never notices. I’m so sad..... why am I sad? #IWantToBeNormalAgain

I was feeling pretty good earlier in the day. Started to feel a bit uneasy at about 3 p.m. It’s so frustrating thinking I’m finally going to have an entire good day and just like that...disappointment. #IWantToBeNormalAgain