My sinuses are swollen and draining. I keep coughing up very dark yellow mucus. I feel miserable. My caregiver gave me some NyQuil right before I ate lunch. I have therapy tomorrow at 3pm and my caregiver is going to join me during the session. My therapist was so happy to meet flutter. He's excited to finally meet my caregiver.
I got some cute pictures of me and flutter at the airport. I didn't get nearly enough pictures from con.
This week my darling flutter took excellent care of me. She made my coffee and we cuddled a few times. Her husband was also very helpful. He got me meds cuz I was very sick.
My mentor paid for my lunch yesterday. I gave him a special gift when I got to the restaurant. He really likes it.
Then when I got home my caregiver helped bring up my suitcase. She made me dinner last night and lunch today. She got me some NyQuil. I took some last night and again after lunch so I can sleep.
I've got amazing partners. I love them so much.
I finally ended an on and off relationship two weeks ago. This relationship sent me to a rock bottom where I picked up my old self-harm habits to cope with the stress. I was put through verbal and narcissistic abuse and those insults play through my head every single day. I still really care for and love this person, and it hurts so much that I had to cut them off for my own safety. I took a lot of what they said to heart, and it demolished my self-esteem. Having grown up with an abusive father and already having CPTSD, I knew I couldn't recover on my own. I want to break the cycle of falling into relationships where I get mistreated. This lead me to seek intensive care, and I'm now in a PHP program. I'm three days into my 10-week program and I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm looking forward to learning to love myself again ❤️
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I'm packing up my suitcase cuz I go home today. But before I leave I'm meeting up with my mentor and his husband for a really nice sushi lunch. I've got a gift for him. I hardly saw him at con cuz he's a director and very busy. I'm anxious to spend some quality time with him cuz he's like family to me. We've been QPP for 5 years. He means a lot to me. I didn't sleep well last night. My sinuses are stuffy and I keep coughing up yellow goo. I hate being sick.
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I woke up at stupid o clock again. This time it was 3am. I can't breathe and my sinuses are full and I'm really dizzy. It's not COVID but it's definitely not fuñ. I messaged my doctor for the same meds I got last year when I came home from con. I should get it by Tuesday. In the meantime flutter gave me NyQuil. It's 4am and I gotta get up at 7am.
This is the last night with my girlfriend and I'm too sick to cuddle but she's sick too. I probably got it from her. And she got it from her boyfriend. Sharing is caring?
I had a relationship with my cousin since she is the only one who "accepted me" as a fat person and not an ugly bastard (parents deal) .yep, I accepted it since I believed no girl would accept me. Then she started to put conditions in our relationship and I was so obedient and blinded, they are pushing me away but I didn't notice that. I went to gym, I became fit and strong, I put makeups to change some spots and then.... Yeah, I heard her speaking to my lol bro with a blush and nervousness and she is admiring him completely... I wasn't there even I was standing when they both can see me... Yeah... Months in gym shattered to be her man then GREAT I'm Second character in love triangle...
The whole thing is, for anyone, whoever, whatever you are. Ugly, fat, hideous, slim, short, sick, silly.. etc whatever you are and no matter your age, I'm giving you myself for a relationship. I don't care about anything else, I just want to love and feel love without conditions. Give it a shot, contact me #AddisonsDisease #Anxiety #ADHD
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I think we might go to the bubble tea shop today. I want to introduce flutter to caramel taro bubble tea. It's so yummy. I know we're going to Aldi for ingredients for dinner. And I'm going antiquing with her husband when he gets home. I don't know if flutter and her daughter are going to the fancy garden for pictures. Flutter is making a pot of butterscotch toffee flavored coffee right now. It's my favorite flavor. I got sweet cream creamer and sugar free pumpkin spice creamer and torani caramel syrup so I can make fancy drinks. Flutter has been trying to make my coffee and she's figuring it out. I'm really happy cuz coffee is my love language. I'm kinda hungry.
I woke up with a migraine so flutter put some CBD cream on my neck and she messaged my neck a little bit. The migraine went away. But then my tummy was hurting from gas pains. I went potty and now my tummy feels much better. But now my lumbar is really ouchy. Flutter is going to put some CBD cream on my back in a few minutes. I took a Norco. I'm trying to rest before our crazy day begins.
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