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I'm new here and this is my first post. I was diagnosed with depression and bipolar as a teenager, with BPD and OCD at 21, ADHD in my mid 20s, and anxiety (general and social) and PTSD, which caused agoraphobia, in my 30s. I'm struggling to maintain right now. Recently found out my landlord is selling my home and I don't know where I'm going to go yet (have to be out at the end of the month). I'm low income and stuck on the waiting list for housing assistance (currently have 3 roommates and they are all going together, I'm not invited). They were the last of my support and now I feel all alone in the world. I know I should go to a professional locally, but I'm terrified of being involuntarily committed and can't afford to miss a day of work or I will never be able to recover financially. I self harmed for the first time in over a decade and am so upset with myself over it. I haven't had a close relationship with my family in a long time, but they are really little to no support and very "tough love", plus they gaslight me. I feel like I must be a horrible person and a huge burden or everyone wouldn't leave me behind. I feel like my ESA is the only one left who cares about me. I know logically that isn't true, there are people who care, and that there are many others out there far worse off than I am. I've tried the state funded mental health clinic before in the past a few times, but only get 10 minutes a month with the doctor for medicine evaluation/changes, and due to short staffing and funding, MAY get to see a therapist once every 2 to 3 months. I feel like I'm running out of options and don't know what to do. Just trying to hang in there with what little I have left. Thank you for listening

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Feeling like I'm on top of the world

My girlfriend got both gifts today. She had Chiro today so we video chatted when she got home. I had her open the bunny first. She fell in love immediately. She really adores it. Then I had her open the potato. She loves it! It's so awesome!

#Relationships

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Hello. Was recently diagnosed with ADHD in Feb of this year at the age of 22, and started meds aswell. It was a big relief as well as a disappointment because I know I would have excelled at school and finished film school(which btw I’m really passionate about). Please let me know if these are the things everyone goes through too:

.) You are able to finish tasks, but overload yourself with them because you think meds are a magic potion, and you have to finish as many tasks as possible. And get frustrated when you aren’t able to do everything all at once

.) Sometimes you think the meds are not working, even tho they worked they previous day

.) A big personality change. I was a huge introvert the whole time and people pleased a lot my whole life. Now I seem to be very confident and honestly could care less about relationships of any kind. As well as been noticing some kind of hyperactivity after the meds wear off for like a hour or two. And have more impulsive behaviours than I did before?? Like I blurt out anything that comes to my mind

.) Using coffee as a stimulant. Way too much of it because I think it helps me focus more

.) For some reason the doctor started me on depression meds aswell, even tho I told him the anxiety and depression was related to adhd the whole time, and wasn’t clinical. Has this happend to anyone else?

.) Imposter syndrome. When I’m doing good for awhile, I feel as tho I’m lying to myself and just need to push myself a little more. That it’s all in my head, even tho I have been to 2 different doctors and been diagnosed for the same

Please let me know your thoughts and insights. I’m very new to this. Thank you

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Anxiety 😬 #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #OppositionalDefiantDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BipolarDisorder #Depression #ADHD

Ok so it’s official my sister and her husband are officially on their vacation they’re in Mexico until Saturday so I’m all alone at their house and I cleaned up the house 🏠 and now I’m sitting 🪑 here watching walker Texas ranger 😂 on television 📺 and I am kinda bored 😑 but also anxious 😬 about being alone in this house 🏠 I know I have no right to complain because God blessed me with a beautiful and wonderful day yesterday I got to spend time with both my daughters and got to spend a few hours with my best and only friend Scotty which I hadn’t seen either my kids or him for at least a month so I feel so guilty for whining about today just wish I had someone to hang out with. And I know that I’m being selfish by wanting to hang out with Scotty again tonight it’s not fair for me to try and dominate his time and it’s selfish to want to hang out with him also because I don’t like being alone and I just want to get better ❤️‍🩹 and I want a more devoted and dedicated sincere relationship with Jesus Christ but I openly admit that I don’t want to work hard for it. I’m not saying that we can earn salvation because we don’t even have to it’s a free gift 🎁 from God and I am also in the wrong for wanting a relationship with him and I not have to work at it I.e. studying the Bible is what I am mainly talking about and that’s not fair to God for me to feel this way about our relationship and I want to get better ❤️‍🩹 mentally and emotionally but I dread 😰 it because it’s hard work and could take a little while and my selfishness wants it right now I want to be honest I want the results without putting in the hard work to get there on both counts meaning my relationship with God and getting better mentally and emotionally I also am selfish enough to want a mature Godly woman 🧍‍♀️ and when I say mature I mean mentally and financially and mature in Christ deeply rooted in Gods word to help me on my journey so I don’t have to do it all alone and I know I know I’m not alone Gods with me on this journey and too I know it’s wrong to want such a woman when I myself am not 100% financially and mentally or 109% mature in Christ myself and I know if I keep going in this circle ⭕️ nothing will ever change or be accomplished it just I’m used to being in a relationship and having a companion and I want it so baaaaad!!!

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I had a panic attack today and I feel really yucky

I took a shower like I do when I get this way. I got out of the shower feeling very yucky. I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. I'm soggy and it hurts. I used to enjoy taking showers but not anymore. They just make me feel soggy and sick. I made a bottle of Gatorade and I am trying to find a comfy place to lay down but everything is dirty. I gotta get better at remembering to take my night meds. I fell asleep before I was supposed to take them last night. My girlfriend was concerned about it cuz I fell asleep very early and she knows what happens when I don't take it. She's been so good to me and I don't take care of myself like I should. I'm not used to being loved in a healthy way. This is the most healthy relationship I've ever been in. I owe it to myself to be a good partner for her. I want her to be happy with me. I'm afraid my illnesses will scare her away.

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#Loneliness Pandemic

The worldly, alluring WOMAN is the Wealth Objectification Mutual Aid Network that is oppressing the workers who are also the taxpayers and consumer of the goods & services on the market.

That same WOMAN has the PR-marketing firms to make you & your children believe they need, want, or will wish they had a way to get what is being advertised.

Their goal is to make you feel dissatisfied with how you look, dress, live, and to get you to start being addicted to something that undermines your health & healthy relationships.

The Mighty is one of the places where we can begin to form another WOMAN…the one where we decide to be individuals, families, a form of an adoptive, blended family who are the Wellbeing Oriented Mutual Aid Network.

Together we can form TEAMS & bloom where we are planted or as we connect around the world. Perhaps some TEAMS are ready to socialize by talking in group formats where we can hear each other but not see each other, like in the free Clubhouse App.

Because we all must have a way to pay our bills, and we want to help each other stay away from scammers, we formed the Global GreenBiz WOMAN Clubhouse.

Although I cycle through here to offer encouragement & to seek it, at times, I have made no real friends to even mention anyone. #lonely #wise #scamInterruptor #happyByChoice one of the #WellnessWeavers

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My struggle right now is that it seems like I have almost no control over my life; not too little, but rather almost none. My illness + societal circumstances have left me with very little agency and such few options for what I can do. If the situation only negatively affected me, I think I’d be okay with it, but it also negatively affects my children. How do I fully accept and make peace with this?
#ChronicIllness #Disability #Relationships

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Can I actually overcome behavior patterns?

#ADHD Diagnosed as a Child at age 6. I was exhibiting angry outburst, and intense frustrations, and my thought processes were very erratic. I was placed on Ritalin. It does help slow the swirling Kaleidoscope of random and broken thoughts and ideas. I was diagnosed with it again, recently as an Adult... #CPTSD My Sister and I are survivors of Physical, Emotional and Sexual Abuse all of which occurred before age 5... continued until I was 11 and figured out that I did not have to allow myself to be in one on one situations with the "Uncle" that had been raping me... At 13, I was allowed to move in with my Aunt Cathy, who was my best friend, growing up... and got me away from my Step-Father who beat my Sister and I regularly, as well as the verbal abuse and telling us that we were useless and good for nothing... We had these thoughts beaten into us, and sadly grew up to be adults with low to no self-esteem... #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder I still do not completely understand this one, and it is a recent diagnosis, but when reading about the behavior patterns, it begins to make sense... I know I am not deserving of the Love and Compassion I am seeking and self-sabotage my relationships, even though I fear being alone... Yes, I know... I am a walking contradiction... #suicidal I am actually a two time Survivor. I did not make half assed attempts. My first time was an Overdose and someone found me choking on my own vomit, and took me to the Hospital I think I was 17. Second time, in my late 20s, I stepped in front of a car, and was thrown over the hood like a ragdoll and ended up with a bad limp for years, that still is visible. While I no longer have any plans to hurt myself. I still have the feelings of being a horrible burden on others and believe they would be better off without me in the picture... So the Thought Process is still inside me... I just CHOOSE to NOT act on the Feelings...

OK I shared all of that, to say this... Decades of Talk Therapy and Medications have done NOTHING to improve my Quality of Life. I still have a deeply negative self-image, low to no self-worth. When provoked, or just feeling intimidated, I go into #oppositionaldefiance and very #narcissistic behavior patterns...

I have learning disorders like #Dyslexia , but I have learned to use Audiobooks and Podcasts to try and teach myself modes of Psychology, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, but I have not had a Psychologist or Therapist to GUIDE me through ways to Utilize these things effectively...

My Family makes comments like "You are an ADULT and should KNOW better!" "You are a Grown Man, you need to start ACTING like one!" "You cannot keep blaming your Parents, for your Bad Behavior. You are an ADULT and Responsible for yourself!" FOR THE RECORD, these are very hurtful and demeaning comments that only make me feel WORSE about myself after experiencing a Meltdown...

CAN I FIND PEACE & RECOVERY from these Behavior Patterns??? Talking and Medication doesn't seem to be helping... I am now looking into Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation. Ketamine Inhalant Treatments have also been suggested... I am reticent to try these. But, at this point, I am starting to want to give in... Only because NOTHING else has seemed to help... and I am tired of being the way I am... My knee-jerk reactions to Negative Stimulation, (or what I perceive as attacking), I shut down and become angry and aggressive and retaliatory... I am doing everything I know how to do and I am STILL battling the same stuff I have been dealing with since I was 4... Now I am 59 and still feel Hopeless and Helpless...

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