Relationships

FIRST: I AM OK! Don’t worry about the title, I’ll explain. This is my last update about the friendship I decided to end. This is my 3rd update, you can find the other posts on my profile.

My last update, I said I did the hard thing and decided to end things and that he responded but I didn’t read it yet. Well, I read it later on that same day, and he got really abusive. He basically decided to gaslight me by putting horrible words in my mouth that I never said and down right insulting me. Because I was leaving, he wanted to tear me down first. I decided to be the bigger person, respond once more very kindly and not give into the awful energy he was creating and blocked him.

That night was rough, mostly because I expected a lot of things, but not verbal abuse. It was like whiplash. I had a short meltdown, and moved on. The best part? It’s only been a couple days and I’m already so much happier. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I stuck to my principles, chose my words carefully and chose kindness over hatred. Seeing the way he responded told me everything I needed to know about him, and it reassured me that I made the right choice.

If you start to get a weird feeling in your gut about someone and you don’t know why yet—trust it. It could save you from a bad relationship. Surround yourself with people who make you feel happy, loved, and seen.

#BipolarDisorder #MentalHealth #Selfcare

Hi friends, my life has been a whirlwind since I last posted on here. On my last post, I wrote about Healing Father Wounds because it finally occurred to me that a lot of the dysfunctions, miscommunication, and disagreements in my current relationship has everything to do with my father wounds, and my boyfriend's mother wounds. It brought awareness to our relationship and made me want to learn more about myself and why I behave or think the way I do. Alot of the information was taken from Chat GPT and google search, but still very informative and helpful.

I'm officially back into therapy and have had two sessions so far. I unfortunately missed one because I was bedridden due to depression, but when I communicated this to my therapist - she was very understanding. I made sure to let her know that the whole point of seeking therapy is to not focus solely on my relationship but to dig deep and confront the root of all causes as to why or how I am the way I am today. I learned that it all started from my relationship with my father, and it never really occurred to me that I have been angry at him my whole life. I used to think it was my mother that I was angry at. I realize now that I took all of my anger out on her growing up when she didn't deserve any of that. Afterall, she tried her best. Right now, I am in the beginning stages of forgiveness. For the first time in my life, I feel hopeful and ready to start healing that very part of me that has been missing for so long.

As for my relationship, both my boyfriend and I have decided to take some time to reflect and work on ourselves. He is currently on a two-week cruise for work. We talk every single day and have been practicing gratitude. I can't lie though. I miss him terribly. We are going on day 5 now, and the first 4 days have been hell. I've been crying and moping around because I miss him so much. My separation anxiety and abandonment issues get the best of me but luckily, he does the best he can to check-in with me multiple times a day. I'll keep my head up and remain strong.

Thanks for reading.

#TheMighty #CheckInWithMe #Forgiveness #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Relationships #Healing #Anxiety #Bpdrecovery #MentalHealth #PTSD #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PostTraumaticStressDisorder

The appointment for the injection in my jaw is today at 3pm. It's 10am right now. I'm gonna shower in about an hour. My partner is going to the appointment with me.

Today's coffee adventure:

I didn't have any coffee yesterday. I just didn't have any spoons to do it. But I made some this morning. My partner set up the coffee maker so all I had to do was push the button. She used vanilla chai flavor coffee. I added some birthday cake flavored syrup and oat milk. It's actually quite yummy. I asked her to add some cinnamon but she didn't. That's ok, I'll do it myself tomorrow morning. I'm very grateful for my partner, she's my rock. I'd be lost without her.

#coffeeadventures #Relationships #TemporomandibularJointDisorders #MentalHealth

Hi everyone,

This past spring, my world shifted when I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. It was both a relief to have an explanation for so much of my life and an overwhelming challenge to face what it all means.

As someone diagnosed later in life, I’ve been reflecting on how this journey has redefined everything—my relationships, my goals, and even my sense of self. To process it all, I started a podcast called Touching Tornadoes, where I share raw and honest stories about my experiences, with a dose of humor to lighten the load.

In my first episode, I talk about the rollercoaster of this diagnosis and how I’m learning to rebuild my life while staying sober (I quit drinking in June after years of daily drinking). If you’ve ever felt like your life was turned upside down by mental health challenges, I hope you’ll find something relatable in my story.

🎧 You can listen here: Touching Tornadoes on Spotify (or Touchingtornadoes.com).

I’d love to hear from others diagnosed later in life or anyone navigating bipolar depression. How has it shaped your journey?