Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

I feel really confused- I don’t know where I am going.

It is so distressing to be so far away from everything I have known for so long. All of my belongings are hundreds of miles away. Many of these things are tools I use to help with my conditions. So I am struggling and, tbh, suffering, because I was displaced so far away. I should have never been forced out of my city. Because of trauma and discrimination, I have been cut off from all of my services except two over the phone, which is really inappropriate for the level of care I am supposed to be receiving.

I don’t know what to do because I’m only here “temporarily” and by the time I get through a waitlist, I will likely be relocated or about to be. Since first becoming disabled I have not been without therapy. I never asked for my services to be discountinued. It’s a matter of circumstance and the help I am getting is primarily focused towards fighting medical malpractice with another agency.

No one wants to help. I have gone to everyone that “should” help. Either they don’t believe me or, when I finally get the whole story out, they don’t know what they can do and walk away. It is actually seriously concerning- these are overseeing boards who say there is clearly a problem but won’t/cant do anything- and I have proof where the admitted to essentially medical malpractice. The whole thing has been scary.

All I do is recount to people who don’t do anything. They just hear it. They don’t write it down so I just have to keep recounting it. I physically cannot write it down- my brain is all over the place and I shake. But I have told it so many times that someone should have written it down at some point. Now I am tasked with doing this if I want to do anything else. Despite the fact that it makes me sick- I have to do it.

I may need to seek legal counsel. I don’t want to do this. It will drag on. And it’s going to be hard to get anyone to listen. As I have seen time and time and time again. I don’t know what to do because I don’t even know the outcome I want. As a former school psychologist, I thought I would be able to contact the board and they would at least be required to look into it. But that is not the case at all. Where is the accountability?

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There's been a difficult couple of days.
It's my hormones again. I feel like a teenager a bit moody and well I get this every month. But I know I need to fix my diet a bit and eat all the foods I know will help. I guess I didn't do that much recently. . Right now I'm between moping and self pity or walking it off and going I to a bubble. I love when my hormones settle down. I don't always know how to explain this to friends that are oblivious. I miss my therapist #depresson #CPTSD #Anxiety . Underneath it all is childhood hurts again it surfaces each month. I look forward to my next therapy session.

There's been a difficult couple of days.
It's my hormones again. I feel like a teenager a bit moody and well I get this every month. But I know I need to fix my diet a bit and eat all the foods I know will help. I guess I didn't do that much recently. . Right now I'm between moping and self pity or walking it off and going I to a bubble. I love when my hormones settle down. I don't always know how to explain this to friends that are oblivious. I miss my therapist #depresson #CPTSD #Anxiety . Underneath it all is childhood hurts again it surfaces each month. I look forward to my next therapy session.