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To the ex who I tried to hold on to
I am so mad. Not just mad. I’m pissed. You straight up lied to me. To my face. I asked you and you lied and I not only believed you but you lied for three weeks. I had to ask you to call me to get you to tell the truth. You are a coward and you don’t deserve my love. You have lost that along with my respect. I have defended you. I have lied for you. I have trusted you and forgiven you so many times. When you were drunk, I forgave you. When you lied, I forgave you. When you broke my heart, I forgave you. I am still going to forgive you, but for myself. So I can move on and be happy. I know that true joy lies with the Lord, but you made me believe that I could find some of that in you. I now know that you never meant anything you said. I don’t know if you tried to change and couldn’t or you were just faking it from the beginning, but either way you are not worth my time or energy. I have wasted too much of those things on someone who doesn’t deserve it. You don’t deserve it. What’s sad is that I’m still trying to make excuses for you and stand up for you but I couldn’t see you any clearer that I do right now. You are a coward who doesn’t give crap about me. You chose yourself, you chose to follow your evil, deceitful heart and be selfish, instead of being truthful and honorable to your sister in Christ who has tried too hard to keep you. I tried to keep you safe. I tried to keep you warm and loved. I tried to show you God’s love and compassion. I tried. You kicked me to the curb. You left me on a hanger in your closet just to see if you could fit with me again. You lied. You cheated. You broke my heart. But you know who’s gonna pick up those pieces? My God. The God who shows me endless compassion and grace. The God who sent his son to die for me. My father who loves me no matter what. I pray that you find and know the same love one day. I pray that you open yourself up to listening and living for Him. #Anxiety #Depression #strengthwithin #MyGodissobig #OvercomeAnxity #HappinessCanBeFoundEvenInTheDarkestOfTimesIfOnlyOneRemembersToTurnOnTheLight #iwillbehappyagain
