livingwithborderlinepersonalitydisorder

I have been cleaning and packing for two days straight and I feel like my house is still a mess S. O. S.
I can’t stand the thought of coming back after road trip across the US to a messy house, I feel like the mess is all around me. My BPD makes it feel like the mess is Mountain high even though it’s just a few things scattered everywhere 😔 and then I start to feel anxious and on edge and the stress comes.
Why did I decide to go on a road trip again?
You guys send positivity my way
🖤🖤 #livingwithborderlinepersonalitydisorder

Ok so I have been doing great for about 8 mos. I am struggling, bad making everyone upset with me. I have screaming racing thoughts, suicidal ideation, dont worry no plan I often have these thoughts but they are not fun to have. This is scary ,overwhelming .#livingwithborderlinepersonalitydisorder #