I feel like writing a lot. A have a complete scenario in my head but when I opened the computer, I automatically open the Cadd program instead of Word documents.
I have a complete plot already but I decided to continue my drawing to feel a little bit real.
For the past 4 months the only thing getting me through each day was knowing that Bluesfest was just around the corner. 3 months away, 2 months away, keep it together Angie it’s only 1 month away. Bluesfest is a tradition for me. It’s a time where I have no worries and just feel free to enjoy myself. Today it was announced that the festival will be cancelled due to COVID-19 risks here in Australia. I’m lost for words on how to describe my emotions. I feel like everything I’ve been holding onto has now disappeared. I have put so much expectation on this for me to be “happy” that now I don’t know what to do. This would have been the last hurrah before starting a family, the last thing for ME. Now I feel like I’m not ready emotionally to start a family because I needed this. I don’t know if any of this is making sense or if anyone is going through the same thing. Just feeling lost. #Depression #devastated #losinggrip
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