I lost the love of my life on 8 August, 5 days after what seemed like a successful operation. My beloved Jamaica had been suffering from bladder infections on and off for a year and was diagnosed with spondylitis(treatable, not too bad) due to her age (9) in April. Within just 2 months she developed a bladder tumour, was operated on and seemed to recover but then, 3 days after the operation she didn't want to eat anymore and go weaker and weaker. Tried everything, infusions and daily vet visits but she died in front of me on the vet's table from multi organ failure 😭😭😭💔💔😭😭😭....
I can't cope, I can't function, concentrate or anything. Random thoughts have me in tears and I don't know what to do.
She always came to me when I was in a bad place, she was my therapist, my heart, my soul, my everything...
I don't know how to live without her, how to go on...😭😭💔💔😞😞💔💔
Feeling so guilty...