EUPD

I had my therapy session today morning. I was told that I have made good progress in resolving issues with my parents, when i talk about them in therapy, I don't speak with hatred towards them. Took 6 years of therapy and now I'm finally past the hurt! Even though it's a small step and i know i have many hurdles ahead but I'm so happy i don't feel any resentment towards my parents anymore!!! Especially my mother, who, as I say, is an emotionally unavailable emotional person.
#EUPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Healing

Hey, everyone. I hope you’re all okay and keeping warm.

I was just wondering… Is a little bit of honey a few times a week okay? I really enjoy peanut butter and honey sandwiches or toast. It’s helpful when I feel like I really want something sweet to eat.

As a bit of a background, my last HBA1C in August(ish) was 62. I’m doing around 2-3hours of brisk walking a week and whenever I’ve had my blood sugar randomly tested, it’s always been between 4 and 8. I take slow release Metformin, Semaglutide and Dapagliflozin. I don’t have to test my blood sugar regularly anymore.

I don’t use much of it. Maybe a teaspoon’s worth in a peanut butter sandwich and a little dollop on my peanut butter on toast. And I don’t have it every day.

What do you think? Thank you all in advance. Stay safe! And stay warm!

#chronicillnesswarrior #ChronicPain #Diabetes #DiabetesType2 #POTS #EDS #Dysautonomia #NAFLD #BPD #EUPD #InterstitialCystitis #Migraines #diabetic #Advice

If you have EUPD, you may get into a borderline psychotic condition where you experience extreme doubt in yourself and others. You cycle rapidly between moods, and may move from despair to euphoria in a very short time. It’s common for you to feel extremely bad, and to feel a great deal of shame if you have these problems.#EUPD #MentalIllness

Hi there - genuinely in a difficult space needing to hear some others thoughts on this scenario - i have 5.0.0.5 years of therapy with current amazing psychologist T - i have had previous therapy before and never experienced what i will describe happening today. My history is child se-ual abuse, eating disorders, then into therapy where i was groomed and abused there too. mixed painful experiences.

This year I’ve had this strong feeling for needing comfort/hugs. i don't really have a place where that happens. Earlier in year i got sick from overdose & could have died. my T was with me, first time i asked for a hug, she said, “i would love to” and hugged me. 2 months later i asked for a hug and she hugged back but i left feeling like i had abused her. then she was off sick for 5 months.

since coming back to therapy, I've done my very best to be honest with T. told her about feelings of needing hugs & feeling like id abused her. She said i hadn’t abused her and she could have said no, (which she has done with people but not me) she also said its okay to want your needs met. but when i have felt like a hug since i don’t ask her - i told her i don’t ask her. i don't know why i am feeling so unsafe and needing that physical comfort. some part of me wishes she would ask if i need a hug at the times i need that but I’m pretty sure any therapist can't ask that- it needs to be client led. it's like i want to know that she cares enough to want to hug and i am not forcing but i can't seem to accept or understand what genuine care is. i get so confused and i am guessing this is stemming from my previous abusive experiences. This T has gone above and beyond for me in ways before - when hospitalised buying me self-care products, pyjamas, and writing a wee card. We have a very strong rapport 5.5years into therapy. thank you for your help #Therapy  #MentalHealth  #CPTSD  #PTSD  #Trauma  #attachment  #Abuse  #psychology  #BPD  #EUPD

Tell me it’s okay. Tell me it’s not real.
Tell me it won’t happen again.
Tell me why this happened. #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #EUPD #BPDDiagnosis

I'm sick of getting nowhere asking cmht for meds for eupd and anxiety, so seriously ready to order online.
Question is, whats the best for anxiety? I've been told cbd and promethazine.
Is there anything better than quetiapine for eupd?
And what the hell can I do with childhood trauma?? I think it's borderline ptsd. But not diagnosed.
Have a psych appointment Friday. If nothing changes, I'll deal with it myself.

29.08.2019 (a message sent to a friend):
“I think I suffer from BPD”

16.05.2022 (said by a doctor in person*):
“I’m diagnosing you with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder. Do you know what that is?”

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* = I cannot remember the exact words, but this was the gist of it

BPD is called EUPD here in the UK. I was told this a few months ago when I first started the fight for a diagnosis. I didn’t realise how long I suspected it until the other week, when I found the original message expressing my concern to my best friend.

I didn’t get the opportunity to suggest it to my doctor until I moved away from home. And after that, I had to gain the strength to ask about it. A diagnosis is final. I can’t think it’s something else when I get diagnosed. But, saying “I might have BPD” to explain my difficulties gets tiring. I wanted the certainty, not living under a self-diagnosis.

I have no issues with self-dx, especially since it’s what I had to go by for almost 3 years. However, being self-dx meant that it was just that. There was no certainty, I couldn’t argue if someone said “are you sure?” (thankfully no-one did), I couldn’t get help related to it. And I ultimately just felt uncomfortable.

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I wasn’t expecting a diagnosis today. Last time I mentioned it, the doctor didn’t seem keen, saying it could be bipolar disorder instead, among other potentials. Today was just supposed to be an appointment that messed around with my medication and looked at previous contact with the mental health services.

But I twigged about halfway into the appointment. When she started asking the questions. I met the 5 criteria she mentioned, and she didn’t have to mention any others. Even when I said one was probably a trauma response. I guess it was both.

It didn’t make it any less surreal when she said the words though. After 3 years to be told that yes my suspicions were right.

I’m not sure how a diagnosis will change things in terms of help. I thought maybe I would be able to be put on medication to perhaps regulate my mood, but apparently medication isn’t very effective. And I was already put on the waiting list of DBT. I guess we’ll wait and see.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #EUPD #Diagnosis #SelfDiagnosis #DBT

I’m really struggling with my eating disorder and have been for a while now. I also have bpd and my self esteem is rock bottom. I live with my family and have been arguing with them so badly recently. They are worried about me and cannot cope with it and say I aren’t helping myself and need to meet them half way. I just don’t feel like I deserve to or need to eat. I use it as self harm and I feel so alone. No one seems to get that it not as simple as clicking my fingers and I can just manage 3 square meals a day. The meer thought of it is totally overwhelming and I’m at a point where I just don’t want to be here any more but I have to be for the people that care about me. I’m so sick and tired of living this life. I’m trapped. #EatingDisorders #BPD #EUPD emotionally unstable personality disorder #Selfharm #Restriction #hopeless #Depression #Family #alone