Yes, i know that my problems are trivial compared to many. I have no one to just listen who is not part of the events. I would talk to my social worker and distance therapist but not a option other than once a month because they are that booked up/ not going to hurt myself, other than mentally or anyone else. I think i’ve talked about my in-laws and their will. That has been a sore topic between my wife and i. I don’t want to move closer but will for her. She is torn between staying or moving.
Just when i had calmed myself over that my wife informs me the property we live at has been sold so new landlord. Wife been dealing with that because she is more extroverted and like able.
She also told me the Pastor of the church my parents, sister’s family and my family are members of, point blank asked why i never at service unless it’s to do with the kids. She told him because i lost my faith and she doesn’t like that i don’t go. We live in close knit community so everyone knows everyone business.
This is also a subject we do not talk about in public. Especially with our son at 9 questions the religion and that really pissed her off because she thought i was telling him stuff. Truth is the opposite. I don’t and actually will stop him when starts up on it. I want my children to make own choices on this.
Also yesterday my son, 9 years old and easily bullied, hit two classmates. It is well known he has a temper that only comes out when he can’t take the bullying and stress for being not like rest of class. Now comes the part that my wife had to take my phone away. When he was asked why he did it the principal, who would rather not have him there and been made clear for last 5 years on that, said he was imagining being picked on and being told by one boy to hit him.
Took him to see the social worker he sees and am told he has ADHD: hyperactivity & impulsively as well as Adjustments Disorder with mood and behavior. We did not get angry with him but took away electronics. We are waiting to hear more of the story first.
Don’t expect any real answers here. Just needed to get stuff on paper.
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