When they're back stronger🥺
Hi. It's been quite a while since we last talked. 4 months to be exact. I feel like I'm taking advantage of you....coming in here only when I need you. I'm sorry.
Things were alright for the past 3 months. My roller coaster had turned into a normal train... Atleast I thought so. I ate when I was hungry and didn't when I was not. But please don't be angry.. I did have food in my system, even it was just once a day. I...
But something went wrong today. Right now its 1.02am where I live. I had gone to bed around 11 today I guess... Which is early compared to the other days.
The next thing I knew I was dragging and pulling and pushing my half asleep boday into the nearest washroom. Just as I dressed up thinking it was only a loose bowel.. I lost it again. I legit sat.. Or more bent into the toilet puking my guts out. And when I say guts out..yes almost all of me. Its hurts love. It hurts so fking much. Idk what to do. I don't wanna wake anyone up. Here I am lying on the couch waiting for the next trigger. Chills running chaos. Breathing softly. Soothing my Lil body. How I wish my inside had another mouth of its own.. So it could tell me what was wrong this time.