Disability and Inadequancies
I was born with a rare bone condition called McCune Albright syndrome which is extremely rare that affects the bones , the skin and the endocrine system. It has taken a toll on my self esteem and how I view myself as a woman . I feel that this disorder has shaped the way that I have felt as a woman who is trying to find her way in the world.. Aside from the fact that this disorder has left me with me with numerous scars and deformities ,and height issues. It has left an indelible mark on how to move forward in life.. I feel as though I am always looking to my past experiences and not looking to what lies ahead of me.
Moving forward is a big issue for me. confidence is a big issue for me . feeling inadequate is a big issue for me.. Dating with a disability is extremely hard in this day and age especially when there is so much pressure on being perfect. Perfection is impossible for any woman but especially someone struggling with a permanent disability . I have spent my entire life trying to fit in and be like every other woman, sadly, Im not and will never be. Will I ever be good enough for any man. Can a man find a woman with a disability sexually attractive? I guess the real question is can a man find me sexually attractive? Can a woman like me ever find true love? Is love, romance, and sex too much for someone like me to ask for?
I have been caught up with being perfect and feeling inadequate when it comes to matters of the heart. The real truth lies in how we feel about ourselves and not getting caught in the fantasy of perfection. We have all struggled with issues of perfection , and how perfection relates to romantic relationships.
I wish that my life was perfect, and I had the perfect body, but I don’t and this is the body that I was destined to have. I have to work with the body that I was given . I forget that my body can do things that many might take for granted. I can drive a car, I can communicate with people, I can go on a date.. and yes, I would like to believe that my body can perform when it comes to pleasure..
Most women might feel inadequate based on a number of different factors. My inadequencies relate to how I feel about my own body and how it has affected my life..
I have realized that just because I have had struggles and feeling of being inadequate, I can still find positive ways to cope with it.
The number one way for me has been to feel good enough. I have spent a lifetime feeling like I will never be good enough for anyone. Due to my disability I have experienced shyness, insecurities, Unhappiness , and even anger and hostility at times. I have realized that I need to accept the fact that not everyone will accept me and that’s ok. Not every man will want to date me , that’s ok too. I just have to be happy with what I was given and make the best of my life!