Rare Disease

The GF chicken tenders from Aldi are really good. I made some so Pauley could see how it tastes. I kinda maybe ate 3. For science. We put honey on them and holdawn a dangnabbit moment. I've never put it on my chicken. It was really really yummy!!!
I made a cup of Vietnamese instant coffee mixed with some white chocolate toffee flavor cappuccino powder and then a nice splash of Reese's peanut butter flavored coffee creamer.. Oh my gobs! It's so good! #coffeeadventures
Would anybuddy like to follow my cooking or sculpting or drawing or maybe just me making coffee and talking about how it tastes vlogs? I mean beyond the compulsory it tastes good. Cuz I have a LOT of flavored coffee. I've got almost 60 servings of instant Vietnamese coffee, an almost full bag of hazelnut IQ Joe, and 3 tubs of really yummy cappuccino powder. I love experimenting with my flavors. It makes my heart happy.
A lot of my friends are pushing me to do it. I don't have what I need to do it. The only thing I have for camera is my cellphone. And I don't have any computer. I suppose I can ask for a really good but affordable camera from my mom for my birthday.
I've been putting off starting the vlog cuz mom said i'm not particularly attractive so nobody will like watching me.
Anywho. How was your weekend? I was in too much pain to go anywhere.
When I sit down facing forward I'm ok for 5 minutes and then I'm in pain but it's mild and I have learned how to mask the pain.
When I sit down side saddle my arm go numb and then it goes tingly. And sometimes I get a really bad pain in my lumbar and then my entire butt goes numb.
When I lay down on my right side I can usually handle it for a few hours.
When I lay on my left side I get sharp stabby pain in my left hip and SI joint. Fun times.
I really don't understand why I won't just cut ties with my family. They don't have any interest in talking to me about our crazy life. I'm 9.953 percent certain if I didn't reach out to my online friends nobody would message me to show interest in maintaining our friendship.
I'm hungry again. Pauley is GF so I got some special food from Aldi including a bag of chicken tenders. I made one for myself first to see how she might like them. I was impressed cuz they're amazing. Pauley ate 1 and a half and I ate the rest.
I've got a really ouchy pimple right next to a large mole on my chin. Very ouchy but also very itchy.
I Had bought tubs of hummus from my last order but I ate them all. They were so flavorful and the texture was nice. I dipped my tendies in the hummus.... Until I watched Pauley eating chicken with honey. I decided I must try this delightful combination of great flavor.
O My gawd so delicious! I imagine it would taste really excellent on a brioche bun with some Brie and fig spread. Yeah I'm bougie. I've actually got a jar of fig spread and most of a wheel of Brie. Unless it spoiled. I was saving it for something special.
I don't have much to celebrate. Oh except the appointment I have coming up on May 20th with my strabismus surgeon. This is the one I had to cancel 2x due to me being sick as hell. I'm going regardless how I feel. I'll take pain meds and antidiarrheals and then to boost it all, I'll take a gummy or 2. Just CBD, I am trying to avoid being really stoned outside where I could get myself in danger. I can see myself bringing home a raccoon calling it my new pretty kitty.
I wish I could describe how intense my pain is. For my migraine it's like someone is hitting me in the skull repeatedly with a ballpeen hammer. For my eyes it's a few different types of pain. Sometimes it is like someone shoving them out. Sometimes it's like someone is repetively kicking my eyes from the back.
What really upsets me is my doctor prior to this chaos and pain was telling me he's a specialist with rare diseases. Instead of giving up because you can't think of anything else it could be, stop. Stop moving. Breath deeply. Exhale. I get chronic migraine. Is there a connection between migraine and exotropia? And don't forget about my narrowing optic chiasm. That's connected also.
Sorry so long, my head is full of fuck.